Guys, it has been a long time!!!
Since the last post, so many things have changed: I now work at the local TV, IOTV. I’m the happiest girl in the world. I couldn’t have wished for a better team. AND….. If you follow me on Instagram (I know I’m less active!!!!) you know I’m EXPECTING! It’s about time I tell you “the story of my pregnancy…”
It’s about time we talk a little bit… In 8 months, I went through MANY phases. Blame it on the hormones?!
Life before pregnancy…
Back in December 2018, I was at my highest and motivated AF! I pitched at IOTV (the local TV) for a Christmas project. It was completely random. I had an idea: showing how Christmas was done on the island. I had bought my canon g7x. I had no clue how to use a camera nor editing a video, but I was MO-TI-VA-TED. It was a match with the team! They then offered me a job. I’m a Taurus. I don’t overthink. I said yes IMMEDIATELY!
Relationship wise, I guess it was booming as well! Lol! Late December, Peanut was conceived. I won’t lie and say it was a surprise. It wasn’t! I know my body!!! I knew the second after the Aha moment I was pregnant! It may sound odd, but it’s the truth. I did tell my boyfriend. For him, I was crazy: “No one knows the moment after they just have sex, they’re pregnant!!”.
Monday morning, January 7th, 2019. I went to the lab with my sister! (I took a blood test not the clear blue kind of test). You get the result pretty fast in the afternoon! The wait was unbearable!!!!!! POSITIVE!! My HCG was high!!! I was two weeks preggo!!! Who was right?! C’est Tracy!
My sisters were happy; they’ll be aunties. My mom was thrilled; she was going to be a grandma. My boyfriend had a “headache”. Me, I was in disbelief!!! I had just found a job and, I had everything planned out MY way. At this exact moment, nothing was going as planned. I was freaking out!!!
The first trimester
The first trimester was a B****. Excuse the language! I had morning sickness plus I suffered SEVERE fatigue! I would sleep at 6 pm. Once I even fell asleep on the beach! Imagine combining a new job + crazy symptoms + hiding the pregnancy symptoms because you want to wait three months to tell. Crazy!!
I did it!
To hear peanut’s heartbeat for the first time at seven weeks changed everything. I fell in love. I then realized I had a little human developing inside me.
The second trimester
Goodbye morning sickness. Goodbye fatigue. Hello energy! I was on FIRE! I felt “normal” again.
It was also time to tell my family (grandma, uncles, aunties, etc.) we would have a new member! Unfortunately, not everyone welcomed the news with excitement. My grandma, for instance, was in SCHOCK! I’m her first grandchild. She thinks I’m still five so you get the picture. On top of that, I’m not married. Thankfully, she got better a couple of days after.
If the first three months, I was scared, I was starting to relax now even though you’re never completely 100% at ease. I was always (and I still do) wondering if the baby is fine. All kind of dumb thoughts crossed my mind. And they still do, up to today! Am I going to be a good mom? That question is on the top of the list!
After the heartbeat, feeling the kicks was another step. The bond got stronger!
The last trimester
I can’t say much yet because I’m in it! However, the fatigue is starting to kick in. At work, we are all on vacay and then right after I’m on maternity leave. So I can rest. I now can fully enjoy my pregnancy because the first months with work and all the projects, I felt like time was passing by.
I also started the prenatal classes (boring AF!!!).
The coolest thing is preparing everything for peanut’s arrival with my boyfriend, my mom and my sisters.
To sum up, one thing my pregnancy taught me is surrender! I CANNOT PLAN EVERYTHING IN LIFE!! All I can do is think positive, manifest, go with the flow and adjust. I did so much with that baby in my belly (that’ll be another post).
Talk you later